I'm keeping my head up

Scuttles, Dolly, and Edie

I have been a bit more hopeful lately....I'm fighting this depression and anxiety!! I know I'm not "fat" or over weight, but I'm just not comfy with my body right now. I prefer to be smaller...I wont do what I've done in the past and get nasty skinny. I just want my freakin adorable clothes to fit. Not to mention it's dead summer and I can't be showy...hehe! I'm going to really start to work on it and I know I'll go right back to were I feel great :) I have been eating healthy for two days but need to work out :/

This week I'm going to the mental health clinic to hopefully get back on meds for anxiety and depression!! I hope all goes well...I really need it to!! I'm also getting my hair cut and dyed as well!! These are just those "things" that make me feel good!!

I put ads up for the puppies....so bittersweet. I have yet decided if I'll keep one!!?? It's all up in the air at this point!

I keep saying and writing it but I really need to give myself a manie and pedie!!! Oh and a facial and all over exfoliation....I just need to do a little spa day!! Emmm???? I also need to go to the library today...I'm craving some "material"! Blahh...I shuld clean and organize my room and clothes :/ blahh and I should wash Bentley :/ ???????

Ahhh, I waiting and waiting for my Lolita sunnies....I can't wait for that little package of perfection!

Puppies are like freakin infants!

The new puppies are so time consuming...I'm learning how you must be totally selfless. They truly come 1st no matter how bad you feel your going mad cooped up in the house. No just leaving the house for more then an hour anymore! They are my top priority, not to mention INCOME! I'm falling madly in love with each of them...Edie(named after Edie Sedgwick, Scuttles(because he's a little scooter), and dolly(she's teeny tiny and just to little to be real...like a doll). They all are all s different and all have such unique adorable personalities.



I Finlay got my clazies...life may resume..teehee!



I rode my bike to 7-11 for Red Bull this evening! The 1st of any exercise in a while...I know, I'm in utter embarrassment! I'm so out of shape lol....The good news is I always bounce back like wonder women...not to worried :)

okay, so I have a new obsession! I have had this same one off and on for years and I just adore it! My little Pony's. I was just thinking about them the other day...how much the colors rock and how punk rock they really were at such a young age...I mean they had rainbow bright hair with boho dreads, braids, and wraps! They also each had a special body art design on them..Like a rad tatt!! GENIUS!!! My little step brother and sister were cleaning out their toy chest. I dug through their throw away bags and found the most amazing finds!!!! Not only did I find the most adorable my little pony's but I found all their matching brushes as well as barbie brushes. This leads me to my 2nd new obsession doll hair brushes...I have the cutest collection going so far! oh my, i almost forgot...I also found in their garbage toys a little munchkin lollie pop kid guy from wizards of oz....he's like really bad ass!!!! He has a tiny little lollie in his hand and the full on oz outfit!! AMAZING!! I'm hoping to get creative with the pony's and make something...hmm??!! Exceptionally with that fab hair of theirs!!! YAY, inspired :)!!! I'm also brainstorming on how to make my darling Library tote even cuter...double hmm??!!

So Tomorrow the game plan will go a little something like this;
-I need to schedule a shrink appointment
-ride bike to get red bull
-I need to clean the bathroom
-I need to clean the bedroom *eat healthy* *drink water* *take multi vita*
-wash dog blankets
-vacuum room??
-do laundry
-race walk
-schedule hair appointment??